Finding My Way

It’s been quite the ride in the last couple of months. Sometimes being honest and looking yourself in the mirror can be the hardest thing to do but it’s worth it all at the end of the day.

I became a person I never wanted to become. I allowed all the emotions in my body rule. Became a person that I allowed angry, selfishness, pride, hate, and jealously rule my life. The person I never wanted to be.

I had to take real hard look in the mirror and I didn’t like what I seen. Who I truly was created to be was so buried underneath a pile of garbage and rocks that I had to really dig and pick up each piece. I had to find the gem way down underneath all the rumble.

What I found was a dirty gem that had scratches on it and needed a lot of work to make beautiful again. As I picked up each piece of garbage and rock I discovered was not pretty at all.

Selfishness, Pride, Hate, Jealousy

I bowed my head as tears stream down my face in complete despair. I hear these beautiful words from that still small voice.

I created you. I knew you before you were even born. I knew what path you would walk. I knew what you would be. I knew you and I love you just the way you are. You are beautiful to me. 

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So many times we don’t stop and realize that God Almighty knew before it even happen. HE is a Sovereign God. He gives us choices. That is what is so amazing about Him. I am far from perfect and I will never be. The way I thought, the way I spoke, the way I act and responded made this beautiful gem look ugly. I was touchy and irritable. I was outspoken. I  said things that I truly should had never said. I took things out of proportion. I was a MEAN person.

I may have never grown up in a home that taught God’s character but God brought people in my life that set a foundation. A solid foundation on His Word, His Ways,and  His Love. Foundation is the key if the house that is built can survive and flourish after the hurricanes of life.

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So my choice is to walk down a completely different road. A road that leads to balance, love, joy, peace, and contentment.

Even though I know tough days are ahead of me.

I have been blessed to have some amazing people in my life to sharpen and hold me accountable for my words and actions.

So Who am I……

I am a Jesus Girl who loves to pray for those around me and study God’s Word.  I love to laugh; yes I laugh loudly. I love to have fun. I am a wine drinker. I love chatting with my best girlfriend. I love being home with my children. Especially learning from them as much as they learn from me. I love my husband and being his wife. He challenges me to become a better wife to him and how I represent our family! I may be rough on the edges but don’t judge this book by it’s cover because really I am kid at heart and I truly never want to grow up. I love our home and re-arranging it all the time. HAHAHA. I hate laundry; who doesn’t. I hate doing dishes but thankful for dish washers. I love shopping online over shopping in a store. I love buying books. Yes books. Some women buy shoes or purses for me it’s BOOKS! I have over 300 in my kindle and I have tons more sitting on my bookshelves. Yes I love reading the books I have not just a collector. My kids have tons and tons of books. Wealth of information from all levels of life. I love Coconut Oil and Essential Oils especially learning how to implement them in our home. I have a passion for giving to others. I would rather give away than selling items. I love sponsoring our Compassion kids in Africa. It amazes us what our small contribution we give each month and birthday gifts; blessing them beyond words can describe. 

Prayer: Father God, may you soften each person that has read this blog today that they may desire to know you more. May you continue to chisel me that I may become less of me and more of you that every person that comes in contact with me sees your character shining through me. In Jesus Mighty Name. Amen

Hope and Pray that you have a Blessed Day!

Liz

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Wow, I feel so lost for words. It’s been so long since I have blogged. Just merely everyday busyness came into play with holidays. Now here we are a new year and a day away from entering February. Time flies very quickly especially if we allow things to control our days instead of being intent on how our time is spent.

The New Year began with my mother becoming really sick and spent 8 days in the hospital. She has COPD and this was the first time in five years with a flare up; so that’s a good thing. Getting a call from the hospital at 7:30 in the morning I just knew it was her. I was ready for anything since the whole drive in to town I prayed and prepared my heart for decision I would have to make since I am her Power of Attorney. The whole time I remember singing in the car a song, “I Have A Hope” by Debra Arnott (a beautiful and very talented friend). Hanging onto each word knowing that I am not alone and that God is with me.

During those eight days, became very hard with trying to balance my family at home and taking care of things with her. During those days, we discovered my mom had developed on the right side of her heart Congestive Heart Failure, Diabetes, and COPD has stepped into a new level. So many changes all at once could make a old dog drag there feet and not want to cooperate but overall by the time she became settled back at home my mom has retaught herself to start eating right, checking her sugars, check her oxygen levels more closer, but won’t give up the one habit that has caused her all her breathing problems. So again I sing loud and clear, “I HAVE A NEW HOPE” and God is in Control of this whole situation because of that I have complete peace in everything.

Amazing how God will use one situation to open your eyes in another situation. I rediscovered my relationship with my nephew. I finally was ready to step up and take responsibility where he needed me the most to be his aunt, his friend, and most importantly see him as a man instead of a child. Breakthrough happen. Now, we see each other completely different. For that, I am completely thankful for!

Celebrated my daughters 4th birthday! How time flies, where has those sweet years gone. She is turning into such an amazing individual so full of life and love! So talented and loves Jesus with all her heart and not afraid to let the world know it.

This passed week, my step-dad was in the hospital for pancreatitis….Thankful he was only there for 2 short days and thankful his numbers came down very quickly and he feeling much better!

So this is what 2014 has shown me already, that my God is faithful! No matter what happens with my parents health, I am at peace that God knows all.  I know that I serve a Sovereign God who loves me so much even when I fail miserable in my words and actions. He still knows my heart. He knows I have a NEW HOPE…HOPE that no matter what He is ALL-KNOWING and He loves me so much to take care of me and my family!

Please take the time to watch Debra’s new video that was released and you can buy her CD on ITUNES too.

Walk in Peace in Jesus,

Liz